If it Did Exist

in response to “Anarchist Film Doesn’t Exist"

August 2023

It has been brought to my attention that a scene from my movie What Color is Blue appeared in the “video zine” (whatever that means) for a zine called “Anarchist film Doesn’t Exist.” I have since both read and “watched” said zine and wanted to respond to the anonymous author’s positions on the existence or non-existence of “anarchist film”. Although I am absolutely not an academic researcher on the topic, I am not aware of too many pieces written on “anarchist film”, the main two that I am familiar with and have read are Jean Vigo and the Anarchist Eye and Arena One: On Anarchist Cinema. I have also had the misfortune of reading Nathan Jun’s Toward an Anarchist Film Theory:Reflections on the Politics of Cinema, available on theanarchistlibrary.org. A cursory internet search reveals there are at least two other books on the subject, “Anarchist Cinema” and “The Anarchist Cinema” but I have yet to read either of these. That being said, I have never found too many useful examples of writings about where I see anarchy and cinema overlapping, and I have only seen a few examples of films that I would consider “anarchistic” (inb4 people bring up Daisies for the umpteenth time.)

What I have found no shortage of, are film manifestos. Which brings us back to the text at hand. Anarchist Film Doesn’t Exist ( or AFDE for now on) is available as either a 13 minute video on anarchy.tube or a 2 page “zine” (essentially a transcript of the video, but which came first?) on theanarchistlibrary.org. AFDE reads more as another film manifesto, joining a long drawn out history of more than 130+ film manifestos (Note: as of 2023, modern cinema is only about 130 years old). That being said AFDE does make some interesting points in its drawn out, suburban-edgy way of writing that reeks of film school acceptance letters. Before responding to it’s content, I wanted to take the chance to distill some of its text down to something more similar to a Dogme 95-esque “Vow of Chastity.”

I believe the essence of AFDE can be boiled down to this passage from the text:


“I’m not interested in the anarchist who makes Cinema or Film. I’m much more interested in the anarchist event. Stealing, scamming and sharing equipment, subverting the traditional on-set structure, refusing the aesthetic and practice of money, and even eventually, telling stories that only our unique approach to moral or social code would tell.”


From here and the rest of the text, I extrapolated the following list:

Frankly I’m baffled by the decision to use footage from What Color is Blue over the description of “Here’s what I think anarchist film would look like if it DID exist…”

In said film, I broke nearly every single one of these vows. Whilst I am still proud of What Color is Blue, the things I enjoy the most about it are the things that do align with the AFDE list. The security footage I stole from the internet, the subtler scenes that cut away from actors, (allowing their “non-professional performances” to shine), the desire to instigate a response etc. All this while the things I am not proud of in the movie (mainly in its execution) stemmed from the things I didn’t do from this list, mainly the amount of issues caused by trying to treat a group of unexperienced local anarchists/anti-authoritarians as employees, and thinking that paying them would and should give me power over them. I tried to find a common ground between the local Radical Queer Milieu™ and Professional Film Crew, but of course that didn’t work, because there is no common ground there.

Strangely enough the negative experience making What Color is Blue is what led me to abandon crewed and budgeted projects, causing me to in-fact align with the AFDE list even more. In fact my subsequent piece it’s still today here was designed to be made by myself (more or less) for nearly zero budget. There exists a more complicated feature-length script that would have required more money/support, but in the end the 33 minute piece that came out of it is the best thing it could have been. It seems like the inspiration for the AFDE list may have came more from that piece rather than What Color is Blue, but I digress.

This confusion over my inclusion and subsequent alignment with this “manifesto” is not all that I want to challenge. There is an equivocal temporality about “manifestos” that just doesn’t sit right with me.

That is that manifestos are often released “before” the event. Manifestos are about proclamations of intent or motives, not descriptions of actions taken. Although I feel like I may have inadvertently inspired this manifesto, the thesis of AFDE is that Anarchist film in fact DOESN’T exist, though my style of “anarchist” cinema may be a possible expression similar to those in the future. But once again. This is Preemptive. It’s a hypothetical “May-be”. A description of an INTENT, not the description of an EVENT. I’m not saying I don’t love manifestos, either political or cinema (or political-cinema) related manifestos are some of my favorite things to read and collect. My work has been greatly inspired by many different movements and manifestos, many of which are collected together in Scott MacKenzie’s FILM MANIFESTOS AND GLOBAL CINEMA CULTURES :A Critical Anthology.


But I want what comes after, what AFDE refers to as, “the anarchist event.”


I want the work to be done. The event concluded. The cameras packed up. The evidence destroyed. All I want left afterwards is my favorite form of writing:

The Communique.

A communique for an attack or action can come in different forms, short, lengthy, poetic, direct, etc. It can list things such as time, location, who was or wasn’t involved, what the target was and why it was selected, the tools and methodologies, and the politics or ideologies behind the attack.


I am going to list a few of my methodologies to how I approach my pieces, my anarchist events. I will list how, when, and why I made some of these decisions, the inspiration for these decisions, and how or why they could be considered “anarchist.”


What I am not going to do is to “complain” about the current “state of cinema.” Although I am a nihilist, I am an optimist, possibly even naively so. I only want to talk about the things that I’ve done that have excited me, and that I will continue to do in the future. To quote Lebbeus Woods,

“To say that you are resisting something means that you have to spend a lot of time and energy saying what that something is, in order for your resistance to make sense. Too much energy flows in the wrong direction, and you usually end up strengthening the thing you want to resist.

The following list has guided me in my actions as a Cinematographer/Video Maker. It is not a list to be kept sacred. If you follow it, this list will not make you a good filmmaker, because I can attest, that I am most definitely not a “good filmmaker”, in fact I’m barely a “filmmaker”, and I most definitely am not what most might consider “good.”

Anyways, here’s the list:




Above are some of the practices, ideologies, and inspirations I use while making what some might call “anarchist film”. I am not saying anarchist film DOES exist, I am just saying, like Chantal Akerman, that “I am an anarchist, and I make videos, and these are some of the ways that I do that.” My practices are informed by many beliefs and ideologies, anarchism not being the least of them.

This zine, like my videos, is not meant to convince anyone of anything, but it is meant to lay out a practice developed over more than 15 years of writing, shooting, editing, and distributing my work.

I have been practicing, living as, and studying anarchism a long time, and I have been making, watching, and studying film and film theory even longer than that.

My cinematographic practices change and will continue to change, just as my anarchic practices have and will continue to change.

“All modes of work exist to produce a single body of work. Each facet builds upon the other…You can never differentiate between the separate modes of creation…A completely unified aesthetic.”

-Mistakest Manifesto

I wrote this zine just like I make my videos, with not only same practices, but also the same perfectionism, anxieties around imposter syndrome, lies, and attempts at myth making.

I probably spent too long on it, and I should probably come to terms with the fact, that just like my video works, this too will only be consumed by a small, but passionate audience. And just like my videos, it will always be free to access online or in person.

And so I will end this piece just like I end my videos. Thank you for reading it.

I love you all.

"We propose that all film schools be blown up and all boring films never be made again.We propose that a sense of humor is an essential element,and that any film which doesn’t shock isn’t worth looking at. All values must be challenged. Nothing is sacred. Everything must be questioned and reassessed in order to free our minds from the faith of tradition. Intellectual growth demands that risks be taken and changes occur in political, sexual and aesthetic alignments no matter who disapproves…There will be blood, shame, pain and ecstasy, the likes of which no one has yet imagined. None shall emerge unscathed. Since there is no afterlife, the only hell is the hell of praying, obeying laws, and debasing yourself before authority figures, the only heaven is the heaven of sin, being rebellious, having fun, fucking, learning new things and breaking as many rules as you can."

CINEMA OF TRANSGRESSION MANIFESTO (USA, 1985)

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